A driving force, a burning determination
Awaiting that day, a wondrous sensation
In no way will I be just a common man.
There’ll come a time, the world will know who I am.
Pathetic losers, those who mow lawns and pump gas.
I will be better, in adoration’s glow I will bask.
To not be known is a life unfulfilled.
All these dollar-slaving fools should have themselves killed.
Oh how dear God, did this go so wrong?
I had it all on my way to fame.
But here I stand as it crumbles before me.
On the dead end road of unrelenting shame.
The goal in view, a tortuous slight taste.
Not meant to be, my unabiding fate.
Now here I dwell, in my confined one room.
Jaded and corrupt, living my own vile doom
Out of luck, for hope I no longer pray.
In a tangled heap, a strung out body lays.
Drugs called my name, I tried them all.
Still no relief from the pain of my fall.
Oh please, cannot live this way.
It stares at me and laughs, this dark, cold city.
Why oh why can I not escape?
From this dead end road of undesired pity.
Oh God, cannot take it anymore.
Must make my way through that one final door.
They scream in fear, yet I continue all the same.
Maybe now, they’ll all know my name.
Hopelessness, nothing left to do.
Finally done what I set out to prove.
Guess this’ll be my final life story.
All this time, my path to glory.
No more despair will my poor soul be fed.
Better late than never, I put the gun to my head.
Limited options, this is what I chose.
My dead end road journey has finally come to a close.
credits
from The Monkey Corner Sessions,
released June 2, 1999
Words: Aaron Rolka, Music: Aaron Rolka & Seán O'Donnell
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